So many times we feel that we are all alone in our feelings ... especially when it comes to our doubts. We feel that others are so much better than we could ever be. We even believe that they could never ever feel this way or that way. It just isn't possible! They (whoever "they" are) are just too strong and too confident to ever doubt themselves!
But when we allow ourselves to let Love in just long enough to express our inner most thoughts ... we see that we are not alone! Why we actually see that the very ones who display so much strength, so much confidence, the ones we never believed it possible to ever have any doubts, felt the same as you! Why they even considered giving up on their dreams at one time or another ... just like YOU!
Wow! The clarity we get when we let just a little Love in! Just a wee bit makes all the difference! Don't it?
Imagine what clarity we would have if we let just a wee bit more in!
hmmmm! You know, I got to thinking of all those times I just wanted to quit! Sheesh! I lost count of all the times I was ready to just throw up both hands and quit! I wanted to just Quit! Quit Everything! Just go back to how it was before I became consciously aware. Before I began giving in to the memories. Before the rememberances of who I truly Am came flooding in!
Oy Vey! Now I understand that old saying of ignorant being bliss! Nothing like walking around not knowing nuffin to keep a smile on your face! :-)
And yes, there are times when I still want to quit! GADS! How easy it would be to just crawl under some rock and tell the rest of the world to have at it! Call me when it's over! Especially, and most particularly, when facing My Self.
Is it me or has anyone else noticed that no matter where you go ... there YOU are! oy vey!
Ahh facing Self in such a wide variety of ways through All these wonderful people so willing to express all my doubts and fears in their own special and unique ways! Blessed volunteers who bravely step forward to remind me of my past mistakes. To cheerfully point out what a (insert your favorite adjective here please). :-)
Like I need these people to remind me of all those times I was a total and perfect ASS????? PLEASE! My memory is in tact with respect to all my asinine behaviors! Thank you very Much! I need no one to remind me ... I remember all of THAT (and then some) in DETAIL!
But then I remember...they are only doing what I had asked of them. It is then I have to say I am Sorry. I'm sorry you felt it necessary to step in and remind me of what a (insert your favorite adjective here please) I was, were, am! :-) I'm sorry for dragging you in the mud hole with me when all you wanted was to love me!
Here, I made you a mud pie! I even put a nice rock on top to show how much I care! :-) It's all shiny underneath that filth ... like me! But you knew that all along ... didn't you?
Funny isn't it? How easy it is for us to Remember all our misgivings, all our mistakes, all those times when we weren't loving to our Self ... with our Self?! We remember all the pain ... yet we forget so readily and so easily ... all the splendor, all the joy, all the Love!
It is during these times that I ask myself ... what is the worst thing that could happen if I simply let Love In?
What is the worst possible scenario? What could possibly go wrong if I just step aside and let Love In?
hmmm! Infinite possibilities here! Just imagine all those possibilities!
"Daughter, after all that is said and done, Love is all that matters. It is all that ever truly mattered!" Grandmother to The Oracle "Children of the Luminaries: Book II~Training Day"
hmmmm! You know, I got to thinking of all those times I just wanted to quit! Sheesh! I lost count of all the times I was ready to just throw up both hands and quit! I wanted to just Quit! Quit Everything! Just go back to how it was before I became consciously aware. Before I began giving in to the memories. Before the rememberances of who I truly Am came flooding in!
Oy Vey! Now I understand that old saying of ignorant being bliss! Nothing like walking around not knowing nuffin to keep a smile on your face! :-)
And yes, there are times when I still want to quit! GADS! How easy it would be to just crawl under some rock and tell the rest of the world to have at it! Call me when it's over! Especially, and most particularly, when facing My Self.
Is it me or has anyone else noticed that no matter where you go ... there YOU are! oy vey!
Ahh facing Self in such a wide variety of ways through All these wonderful people so willing to express all my doubts and fears in their own special and unique ways! Blessed volunteers who bravely step forward to remind me of my past mistakes. To cheerfully point out what a (insert your favorite adjective here please). :-)
Like I need these people to remind me of all those times I was a total and perfect ASS????? PLEASE! My memory is in tact with respect to all my asinine behaviors! Thank you very Much! I need no one to remind me ... I remember all of THAT (and then some) in DETAIL!
But then I remember...they are only doing what I had asked of them. It is then I have to say I am Sorry. I'm sorry you felt it necessary to step in and remind me of what a (insert your favorite adjective here please) I was, were, am! :-) I'm sorry for dragging you in the mud hole with me when all you wanted was to love me!
Here, I made you a mud pie! I even put a nice rock on top to show how much I care! :-) It's all shiny underneath that filth ... like me! But you knew that all along ... didn't you?
Funny isn't it? How easy it is for us to Remember all our misgivings, all our mistakes, all those times when we weren't loving to our Self ... with our Self?! We remember all the pain ... yet we forget so readily and so easily ... all the splendor, all the joy, all the Love!
It is during these times that I ask myself ... what is the worst thing that could happen if I simply let Love In?
What is the worst possible scenario? What could possibly go wrong if I just step aside and let Love In?
hmmm! Infinite possibilities here! Just imagine all those possibilities!
"Daughter, after all that is said and done, Love is all that matters. It is all that ever truly mattered!" Grandmother to The Oracle "Children of the Luminaries: Book II~Training Day"
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